Frustrations

Its been a while since I've last visited my blog or anyone else for that matter. I feel bad that I've lost all desire to get on here and make an effort to be "involved". A lot has happened over the last several weeks, some good things and some bad things. More than anything I've lost a lot of motivation to do things. There has been a lot on my mind and it really has been trying on me. I am looking for the sun through the clouds and trying to see the good through the bad. I am hoping that over the next few weeks I won't loose complete hope and will find that fire to light underneath me. Typically I don't like to write about the negative things in my life, because I want my blog to be a place where people can laugh at the things I experience and find some peace of mind after reading what I write. Normally I would just let this blow over, pick something funny that has happened and not even bring up the frustrations in my life, but I promised my sister I would continue to write and so this is what is going on....


I found out that my current position is going to be moving up to Headquarters in Minnesota in March which is not something that I'm interested in pursuing. There has been a lot of conflicting information given to me and I'm starting to question if my time with this company is coming to an end. For the first time in a LONG time I have put my resume together and began taking a peek at what else is out there. I almost feel forced to do this, I really enjoy my job as a recruiting specialist and am sad that this is the step I have to take. I guess this is an opening door for me... as they say when one door closes another one opens. This may be a chance for me to start my life.

I've been focusing a lot on school. I have less than a year left until I will graduate with my degree. I know many people don't see this as the accomplishment but it really is. For more reasons than many of you will ever know, I have to find pride in this tiny chapter in my life. I am proud of my accomplishments thus far and can't wait until these online classes are over. They take up so much of my time that I spend about 10-15 hours a week just doing homework. I am loosing my motivation to work out and can see the effects of it. I typically try and make it a point to spend an hour at the gym but the last few weeks that hasn't been the case. I have the scale sitting in my bathroom and I'm afraid when I step on it, the thing will speak for the first time yelling "get off me fatso!" I miss writing and wish I could write about things that interest me and not on topics like "How can working in a team be a good thing"

Reading helps me move through these frustrating moments. I love to read and have been working through books left and right. (Speaking of this, I should write thank you letters to a few of my favorite authors). I've been spending a lot of time just by myself contemplating what it is that I'm supposed to do. I'm not the type of person who just expects things to happen for me. I'm a person who has to have a plan and will write that plan of my life if I have too. I don't want to wait and see what comes along. I want to make sure that I have a hand in where things go. I want to make sure that I'm ready for what God gives me.

If any of you have suggestions, places to check out for employment or other methods to find motivation I would really appreciate it.

Until next time my friends...